Breast lump, terrified, only 30.
Last week I noticed some itching on my right breast, I waited a few days thinking it was nothing and then decided to do a breast examination… I don’t do them often cause I have very cystic breasts and I can never tell what I’m feeling…
I was at about 10 days into my cycle ( I usually ovulate between 10-14), and am 30 years old, pretty healthy, eat well and exercise. My boobs are large though.
I couldn’t tell what I was feeling but then noticed a small little oval ( almost like a Bean ) on the right side where I have been feeling some itching and tingling…immediately I went into a state of panic, I kept poking and prodding for the next 45
Mins and all day the next day… it felt soft and movable, but still something…. my dads mom died of BC at 33 ( although she was also living in Egypt) In the 40’s….
I went to my dr the next day who treated me terribly- degrading me for not having genetic testing ( I’m sure you HA people here know what that would do to you mentally…. and heightening my fears telling me “yup that’s a lump” and giving me no hope that it’s not cancer…. she shoves the ultrasound report in my face and left the room…all the while I had to start work in 30 mins…. it was devastating….
I will note I had the same breast ultrasounded ( in that same spot 3.5 years ago) and it turned out to be nothing….even though it felt like a lump.
All weekend I’ve been having random tingling/ aching and shooting pains into my armpit…
Now all weekend I’ve been up and down, but constantly feeling a Sense of dread and putting myself in the grave…in the past few days the lumps have become bigger and there are 2-3 now ( hard to tell)….
I have a US on Wednesday but can’t focus on anything….. I’m utterly terrified….
Any help or experience in this would be appreciated.
I am so sorry you are going through this. I will be happy to pray for you. If you don’t already have a breast specialist, I would recommend seeing one. Either a breast surgeon or CNP that works in breast oncology. They will take your case seriously and can arrange all your mammograms/ultrasounds from here on out and often follow-up immediately by seeing you same day.
Ditch whatever Doctor you just saw. There’s no excuse for that.
I have no answers, but I would also come unglued at such, so I understand and I will pray. Not all lumps turn out to be cancer. I had one when I was about 30 and it disappeared. So I will pray that yours will turn out to be nothing, as well.
Sounds like your doctor is pretty terrible and you should get a new one.
The majority of lumps turn out not to be cancer, but you did the right thing by going to your doctor and getting it checked out.
If it is cancer, then detecting it early gives the best chance of successful treatment and, hopefully, complete cure. Breast cancer is probably about a third of the caseload in an oncology centre, and the survival rates are very good.
Our God is Healer and He is our peace. Every time you feel those anxious feelings and hear those anxious thoughts, let the Lord know your fears, be like the woman who kneels and reaches out to the hem of Jesus’s cloak. Believe Him and then give Him thanks for who He is and what He is doing. If you do this, we are promised that the peace of God will guard our hearts and minds.
I am praying this for you and that your fear, and any sickness or disease that is there will be gone in the name of Jesus and by His blood.
I’m so sorry you are going through this time of fear and worry. Cling to God our Father, our Good and loving Daddy God who holds you in his arms and comforts you in the strength and security of his power. Give him the trust of a child because he is worthy of your faith.
I can relate to your uncertainty and fear in the waiting time. Last March I had a blood test that often (though not reliably) indicates ovarian cancer. I’m sure you have already looked up statistics, so you may know that ovarian cancer is quite often a worst case scenario. The only way to know definitively was to operate and they recommended a complete hysterectomy, which I had on July 5. The wait was excruciating. We had a friend who fought a long and faith-filled battle with (I think it was) liver cancer and in spite of having a young teen daughter, (as I did last spring), and in spite of a strong faith and many many prayers, she died. She lived a beautiful testimony of faith in Christ to the very last and her family continues to praise God for the work he did in her life and in her illness. I was terrified I would be asked to walk that same road and be the peaceful, positive believer, ready to leave my husband and daughter behind to go home with the Lord and glorify God in it. I wanted to be able to be obedient if that was the plan God had in store for me. I wrestled with my fear and sadness and spent a lot of time feeling that when I went to the hospital I might come home a cancer patient. (Or even die in surgery; that was in there too.)
I never reached a point where I felt I could behave the way our friend did during her struggle with cancer. I felt like a failure for not being able to say, “Yes, Lord, I will accept a scenario like what happened to [our friend] with the same cheerful positivity and faith.” But I did feel peace as I went into surgery that whatever ended up happening, God would be with me.
Someone pointed out to me that I probably never felt that (ready to face our friend’s situation) because it wasn’t required of me, and God gives us what we need to do his will as we need it, like the manna he provided the Israelites each day. He will give you what you need to face this challenge each day too! Hang on tight to him, keep your eyes on Jesus, drench yourself in his word and whenever you are scared, tell him. I hope and pray with all my heart that you too will hear some of the most beautiful words I ever heard, when I woke up from surgery: “Not cancer!” Until then, and if your story is different, I can promise you that God will never leave your side. I can testify this is true, because he never left mine, no matter how scared or sad or depressed or even mad I got, he never left me alone to deal with my fear or with anything else I have faced in life.
Sometimes life takes a turn down a nasty dark alley and the fog rolls in and you can’t see anything and scary things are all around, but when you reach out your hand, he is always there to take it in his and walk with you through it, and he can see in the dark!
Also: I agree with LIL–ditch that doctor! NO excuse for that!! I might even consider reporting her to a governing body to prevent others from having the same experience.
I am praying for you!
If it’s painful and movable, it is unlikely that it is cancer, that is what a doctor told me when I sought medical advice the day I found my large painful lump.
After an ultrasound and then a needle aspiration, the original doctor was exactly correct.
Not that if it’s painful and movable it is never cancerous, but the original doctor must know statistically they aren’t.
But please know this….even *if* it turns out to be the worst possible outcome, amazing treatments are available…..to live a long prosperous life and completely be cured.
And more importantly, our God loves you and wants you to prosper and be in health.