How old were you?
How old were you when you first saw/watched pornography? I went to a men’s retreat that mentioned an average of around 10. The speaker of the retreat commented that Satan seems to know that around 10 is a good (and vulnerable) age to implant the seed of sin in a young boy’s life.
In my first year of college (way before the Internet age and just after Gutenberg’s press invention 🧐 ). It was a Playboy magazine when photos were far more discrete. Even so, it was a jarring experience. I’d never seen a naked woman – real or in a photo. My emotional and physical reaction was chaotic at the moment and for days/years after – and today! The desire to see more and the realization of its wrongness were at war. It was my first real epiphany that pornography is appealingly and devastingly addictive.
I was 11 or 12 years old. One of the boys I hung around with found some magazines in an alley.
What is particularly bothersome is that as a rule, I don’t remember much from that age. A few vague memories that I can’t fill out with details. But I remember that event vividly, and can still describe one of those pictures in great detail.
My “porn” exposure was probably in my pre-teen years. I was at a bookstore with a friend and her mom, and that was before they put magazines in plastic. The mom wasn’t around, so we thought, and the friend picked up some magazines with men in them. Looking at the naked opposite sex definitely did not have the effect on me as it does on boys. It must have been a Playgirl and some other magazine that was men for men.
My video exposure that young, was tapings of late night cable (HBO, Cinemax). Real porn came in my first year of marriage at 19. All before internet was in our lives.
I found my dad’s stash at 7. It was 60’s Playboys and Penthouse, so T&A and the occasional hint of pubic hair. Still enough to get me hooked.
In my early teens, I took to scavenging illegal dump sites. What I found there was far more hardcore, with full nudity, oral sex, and intercourse.
By the grace of God, I stopped at the age of 15. But what I’d seen changed me and caused me problems when I got married a decade later